So I am on my phone for this post. While I am   trying to fall a sleep. As I lay here feeling sorry for myself. I have to remember that I don’t have it has bad as others. My dad is dying of cancer,work is really slow and that is putting a strain and my girlfriend and my relationship. I have to remember no matter what, I have family and friends that love me and care for me. That is what life is about. Not having the big fancy house or the nicest car. Those things won’t keep you company ,when you need someone to talk to . Like I did tonight, while feeling down .Thank you Bianca I love you with all my heart . You are an Angel.


Humanity and Hope

You know, the violence against trans people doesn’t scare me, the suicide rate doesn’t scare me, the homeless rate doesn’t scare me. But what does scare me, is the fact most of the people in America are too naive to see it even happening. With as open as all of it is, there is really no hope for the country.If you do know that it is happening and don’t do anything about it. What does that say about you? Sitting in front of your tv or not leaving your house isn’t going to make the world a better place. It is going to take you getting out of the house and walking down; the street and helping feed a homeless person at a food kitchen, or if you see someone, any being victimized. Stand up for them, call the police or whatever it takes. Quit being the world is going to end or the world has no Humanity.Open your HEART and give the world some hope. Without HEART there is no HOPE601703_424626737559149_383283021_n

YOU LOOK DISGUSTING – (Comments Left on Social Media After a Woman Begins Posting Images of Her Face Without Makeup)

This is so sad, That people can be so hateful. Please get some compassion and realize. We are all human beings. Beauty is more than skindeep . Beauty is in the heart

Kindness Blog

“My Pale Skin” wrote:

“Three months ago, I began posting images of myself without makeup on social media. The following film contains real comments that were left on images of my face.

Over the past few months, I’ve received thousands of messages from people all over the world who suffer or have suffered from acne, an insecurity or self-confidence issues.

I wanted to create a film that showed how social media can set unrealistic expectations on both women and men. One challenge many face today, is that as a society, we’re so used to seeing false images of perfection, and comparing ourselves to unrealistic beauty standards that It can be hard to remember the most important thing – You ARE beautiful.

You are beautiful – no matter how flawed you feel, no matter how upset you may about the way you look or how hard you find it to make…

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Watch John Oliver Urge People to Continue to Fight for Transgender Rights


Equal rights made great strides this week, but on Last Week Tonight, John Oliver urged people to continue to work towards better treatment of transgender individuals, both in the media and under the law.

Some of the biggest names in news media have fumbled over the issue of how to talk to transgender men and women, so Oliver made it abundantly clear: “It’s no more okay to ask transgender people about their sex organs than it would be to ask Jimmy Carter whether or not he’s circumcised.”

Oliver then laid out a road map for differentiating between gender identity, sexual orientation, and the choices that transgender individuals make about whether to use hormones, undergo surgery, etc. In short, according to Oliver: “Their decision on this matter is, medically speaking, none of your f–king business.” As for pronouns and names, Oliver believes people should simply be called whatever they prefer to…

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Sorry, wrong number

attention Navy Federal Credit Union people. I have got one of these before. I just reported it to the FBI and to google as a scam. be on the watch for them


I received the following in my Gmail spam over the weekend:

Your Navy Account Is Under Review
Navy Federal <>

26 Jun (1 day ago)

to Recipients

Navy Federal Credit Union

Attention !!!

Our system can not verify your account and this might
leads to account suspension

please click here to resolve the problem.


Do not login elsewhere after you verify the account within 24 hours

There are a couple of things wrong with this message from my perspective and a couple of general red flags. First, I’m Canadian and second, have never served in the U S Navy. I did serve in the Canadian Army however if that makes a difference.

Now, the general warnings. The address “to recipients” is a prime giveaway you are dealing with spam. If it was a message specifically for you, it would bear your name. I am also suspicious of the email…

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Last words by Lucas Roberts

I need to start off and let this be said. I had a conversation with Lucas Roberts on May 22nd. He stated to me, that if anything were to happen to Him. I was to post this statement on my blog to help others that are transgender. I have had this huge internal battle going on as soon, as I found out about his death. As I had to weigh the wishes of Lucas and the feelings of the family. After weighing the options, I am posting what He sent me as it was his last request..

  • May 22
  • Lucas Roberts

    Lucas Roberts

    this is what i sent my grandmother

    After talking with Jannie I know i am blamed for your last stroke and I want to know what you want. do you still want me in your life or do you feel like everyone else and want nothing to do with me. This choice is yours. If you tell me you want nothing to do with me then i will not call write visit or otherwise ever again. Not even when there for court. If you do want me in your life in the above mentioned ways then so be it.

    I will not take the blame for your stroke for trying to be happy. For trying to be who I have always been and have had to hide because it was not accepted. I will not take the blame for Des fooling everyone. I did not tell her to say she was suicidal to not have to go to Colorado I did not tell her to do anything except to not hurt herself or run away. That is all i have told her to do and to get help for the way she feels.

    I am sorry that Jannie lost her job because i took Des at her word. I did not know she had not done anything until after the fact and it was a combination of Rusty(PCSO) and Des telling me she was with Jannie since I had been told she was out of state in either Colorado or Alabama.

    This is why I hate people lying to me. Because when someone reaches out for help i wont do to them what was done to me. I will help them if i can. When i am lied to about where they are what is going on it makes me look bad. Again i am sorry for Jannie losing her job but i will respect her wishes of no further contact. Just as I am respecting Edie’s for her and Des. I will not reach out again.

    I have blocked Des entire family and deleted phone numbers and such from phones. If i need to do to delete more people then I will. my coming here was for my safety mostly. Yes work is good but am i happy doing it no

    I am tired of hearing things that are being said about me. All i ask for is the truth. I want to know what your wishes are at this point.

    Yes it pisses me off that people still call me Steph because that is not my name. to a transgendered person male or female being called by the birth name causes a lot of mental anguish as it shows them not being the person they were supposed to be born as. I know everyone says god doesn’t make mistakes but i can not help that i have never been female and that this body disgusts me that i am not the person you had hoped to meet someday. To me calling me that is disrespectful. You told me the night i came out that you would accept me for who i am and that I’m not changing anything except the wrapping. The only thing that changed with me is that i didn’t have to hide who i was anymore. i was able to finally begin being happy. Losing my unborn child (March 14), Des (march 31), Olivia (my girlfriend of 6 months march 31- April 2) and mom *April 8) all in a 3 week time period was enough to push me over the edge as it would have anyone else. having to say good bye to the cats has not been helpful on top of all that. I have had 3 Attempted suicides Since Jan 1, 2015 Overdose Strangling Cutting to deep. those are what i have done with feeling like I’m not accepted by the people who should love me unconditionally. By the people that i love unconditionally the people that are my family. I stopped coming to the house because of the heat. I could not take it and the night i got out of jail you and grandpa were the only reason i didn’t kill myself that night. the only reason i wasn’t found dead in the bedroom. I have struggled with suicidal thoughts for 9 weeks really bad i even attempted to admit myself to Booneville and i couldn’t walk thru the door. I am telling you all this to help you understand what has been going on with me The choice is yours on what you want where i am involved.

    your Grandson/Granddaughter Luke/ Steph

    I did talk to him three days before his death. Right before his Grandma’s funeral. His feelings had not change on this

We will see you on the other side Lucas.